Tag Archive | Self-Love

Card of the Day-20 June 2017

Card of the Day
Whale (Breach) Reversed 🐳

What a great card for today as I return from a social media break. We all have moments where for our own good and sanity we must step away from the computer, turn off our IMG_20170620_033922_189phones, and spend time with loved ones, with ourselves, and in nature. Life becomes so hectic that we lose touch with our own spirit. Constantly are we bombarded with external energies, ideas, beliefs, and/or concepts that we literally can feel as if we are being swept out to sea. If you have noticed feeling this way, take time away from social media to really disconnect with the world and instead reconnect to your spirit. You may learn things you never even realized you didn’t know. I had this experience after struggling with an issue for 5 years! 5 years!
Breaks are good and vital. When its time to return, you will do so feeling much better, inspired, grounded and centered. Almost like a new person.

*Card is from the Earth Magic oracle deck by Steven D. Farmer

Brightest of Blessings,

The Autumn Witch

Don’t Forget!!!! 1 more day until Litha/Summer Solstice!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!

Card of the Day-5 June 2017

Today’s Card of the Day is the Ace of Cups reversed with two other cards to clarify: The Star and Queen of Disks (Pentacles). IMG_20170605_044624

We want to heal the world and certainly could agree that it is in need of it. Every day we are bombarded by images and stories of destruction, fear, hate, ignorance, and intolerance. This is unbearable, especially for an empath or healer. We want to spread light into the world. We want to help. However, we can’t spread anything from an empty cup which is bound to happen when we allow ourselves to become drained. We invest so much of our time and energy into these stories and our mission that we forget we must care for ourselves as well. It’s only practical. Before we can share our light, we must be in control of our bodies and selves. Take time to refill your own heart with light. Do something that brings you joy. Go for a walk, paint, dance, play with a pet. Anything to recharge your own heart chakra so that you may be the luminous healer and lightbearer you were meant to be.

This is going to perhaps be the running theme for a bit as this certainly isn’t a quick fix sort of issue. So how can we possibly hope to accomplish this besides fueling our own IMG_20170605_045902joy? I pulled an oracle card for guidance and had one jump out as well. The meaning was more than spot on and I almost gasped when I saw it because duh, why didn’t I think of that?! The actual card pulled actually had me laughing because it took me a moment. So, the card pulled was Full Moon (Completion) which confused me because I didn’t get the completion part. I realized this card was being literal and referring to the Full Moon which is on the 9th. It’s a time to set intentions, release what is no longer serving us, and do manifestation magick. The jumper was Rainbow (Blessings). We can recharge ourselves by counting our blessings each and every day since gratitude raises our vibrations. However, it would seem that this Full Moon is particularly important to do so.

Be grateful for what is right and good in the world, set some intentions, recharge yourself, do some TLC, ignite your passions so that you may spread more light into this world so that we may be healed and whole again.

 

*Tarot Cards are from the Thoth Deck which I am loving more and more! Oracle Cards are from the Earth Magic Oracle Deck by Steven D. Farmer.

Brightest of Blessings,

The Autumn Witch

Card of the Day-30 May 2017

We’re being guided to finally release all that we’ve been clinging to these past several years. Most of us have the tendency of holding onto the heartache, pain, and betrayal that naturally occurs whenever someone acts against us. Once we’re slighted, we shut down and cut them off. Instead of effectively communicating in an attempt to resolve these issues, we ignore them or may even blow them out of proportion. Are there some 20170530_011508instances in which our anger is appropriate. Yes, but you must release that pain. Forgive. Not for them but for you, Honey. In the words of Tony Robbins, “Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself.”

Does this mean that you forget and must return to your prior friendship? Hell no! It means loving yourself enough to say “This isn’t my shit and isn’t going to continue plaguing me! I deserve peace, dammit!” The person may not be sorry but that’s okay. Forgiveness doesn’t equal a return. It equals peace. You deserve that higher level of serenity.

Take some time today to breathe and meditate on all (or one at a time of) the transgressions against you. Allow yourself to feel all the pain, betrayal, anger, annoyance, etc. then allow yourself to forgive. If you feel the need to invoke help, do so. Call upon your personal view of Deity, any angels (Raphael would be appropriate), ancestors, etc. Ask for their help and it shall be.

You may even want to forgive yourself for things you hold against yourself. For this I always go one by one and picture the very moment it happened. I see myself as a detached bystander who is merely watching. As the scene plays out before me, I send love to my past self with the intention of forgiveness. I pour love into myself and when I come out of the meditation, I always feel astoundingly better!

Forgiveness isn’t easy in the slightest but it’s necessary if we are to continue growing and moving forward. Don’t allow yourself to become trapped within the past when it’s as simple as a short, “I forgive you.”.

My affirmation: I forgive other’s transgressions against me and release that energy.
Likewise, I ask forgiveness from wrongs I’ve done to others–intentionally or not.

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**This card is from the Angel Insight Pack by Christine Astell. I don’t use this deck very often–indeed, it’s quite rare, but I was called to use it this time and I am ever so glad I did. 🙂

 

Brightest of Blessings,

The Autumn Witch

Card of the Day

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Card of the Day
Island (Solitude)

This is a gentle reminder from Spirit that you must take time out of the day where you can shove everything aside and focus on you. Seek some alone time. I find this especially important right now as we are constantly bombarded by negativity in the news, our lives, and on social media. Today, take some time throughout your day in which you purposely focus on yourself. Check into how your feeling. What energy is sticking around that isn’t yours? Breathe and just be. Embrace the stillness. Meditate. It’s all about self-care and acts of self-love.

From the Earth Magic deck by Steven D. Farmer

A Tangled Relationship with Love

“Sometimes to find love we must first love ourselves. In loving ourselves, we uncover our relationship with love.” –The Autumn Witch

We all have our own issues and problems in regards to love-whether that be love for ourselves, our family, our friends, our significant other, or even the overall conception of just love. It’s this very misunderstanding and misconceptions that can lead to us dreading and abhorring certain days like today-Valentine’s Day. I can already hear the collective groan! It isn’t because I’m single that I despise it but the simple over commercialization of what love should look like which leads to an over inflated sense of grandeur as well as expectations.

That doesn’t mean that I dislike romance and lovey-dovey schmutz either because believe me, I do! I’d noticed recently my dislike for Valentine’s Day has only increased and grown worse but I wasn’t sure why. Sure, I’m single but I choose  to be. I value my independence, time, and interests. There’s just a lot I want to do and unless I happen upon a man who shares those exact passions, I feel like I’m settling. That I’m forcing myself to give up and that’s not my thing. For example: I want to travel the world and teach abroad. I’ve actually been researching a potential opportunity to teach English abroad for a year in a country that I do speak the language of which would be an amazing opportunity (don’t want to give too much away–better not jinx it!), however when I guy starts talking to me and wanting to become serious, I totally freak. The men I’ve talked to either already have children, which isn’t the problem for me, but also love the area they are living in or have explicitly stated they’ve done all the travelling they wanted. We end up wanting two very different things!

OR this was the excuse I was always mumbling to myself whenever I would either decline any offers for a date or when I would end the relationship all together. It’s not that I’m a flake but there was something deeper to it that I just wasn’t acknowledging–or even willing to uncover! I wasn’t being real with myself. Well, recently I’ve begun a journey of self-love which has already been incredible. Suffering from low self-esteem and confidence, this has been a major eye-opener for me and it was through this love for myself that I began to open my heart up. With this came those emotional wounds, those shadows of my past.

It actually wasn’t something I had planned on doing as I wasn’t even aware I had deeper, more rooted issues that were plaguing my love life until this morning when I drew my card for the day which I’ll include the link below for! This card signaled there was some relationship and emotional issues that needed to be resolved before I could be free and move on. I knew I’m still pining over an ex-boyfriend of mine who was the ideal man for me–having been sixteen at the time meant I had been afraid of that serious commitment even though I could envision us getting married one day. Wait, how could I be afraid of the promise to stay together yet I could see us happily married with kids? Simple. It’s because I was afraid of settling down and not making anything out of myself. I was afraid that if I remained with him then I would give up my dreams of traveling and even maybe my dream of going to college. Over dramatic? Definitely but being an emotional teenage girl, that was who I was.

So, I dumped him. Except not in the best way possible. I dumped him for his best friend that we both worked with. Yikes. I know how wrong it was and actually ended up dumping his friend the same night I dumped my boyfriend because we just weren’t compatible in the least bit. I’d gone from someone I cared deeply about to someone who was only really looking a girl to have a fun time with. My fear wasn’t the only thing that drove me to do it but also several other factors, such as only seeing and talking to him at work because he didn’t have a phone or car. That, my friends, gets lonely whereas the other one did. And he loved to text so going from only speaking to a guy four-five times a week to having a guy text you Good Morning….it isn’t that hard to understand why I felt drawn to the latter.

It wasn’t only with that boyfriend though that I’ve sabotaged it somehow but I didn’t understand why I did it. Sure, like I stated previously, fear of giving up on my dreams was one and a big one but that wasn’t the end of it. As I prepared for my day, I was showering and that was when it hit me. It’d been a conditioning from my childhood that I had repressed and swept underneath the rug–THEN add the failed relationships that I blamed myself for and continued blaming myself for. You see, my parents didn’t have the best of relationships and actually were two people who never should’ve gotten married. They constantly bickered and I could see how much my mom hated being in that relationship. She’d given up her dreams of going to college, of making something of herself and had instead settled for being married and immediately having children. I was born four days before my parents first anniversary.

Watching her regret her decision and relationship every day as a child subconsciously had resolved me to never allow myself to become tangled in that trap. I refused to. So whenever a relationship would be fine and well, I’d panic and do end it. I looked for any reasons to justify my leaving and there just never seemed a good enough reason to stay. Being given this fresher perspective, I’m able to work on my issues so that they don’t hinder me in the future. While I value my independence, if in the right relationship I won’t feel like I’ve lost that. This aha-moment has given me the opportunity to really examine what love truly means to me. I used to think love was a hindrance that wasn’t a luxury I could afford. I  thought it looked as miserable as my parent’s marriage. I wanted this ideal perfect boyfriend who met such high standards because then I could easily argue against any relationship because they were below par. I was afraid. I still am. I’d be a fool to believe otherwise, however I now have the tools and capability to fix that conditioning since I can know understand why I believe it to be so.

If you find none of your relationships are panning out, take a step back. Reflect on each relationship and look for common themes. They’ll be there. Journaling would be a great way to do this! Take a honest look which can be hard as none of us want to admit our faults. I believe in you. If you want to do this but are having a hard time starting, try answering these questions:

  1. What does love mean to me?
  2. What does love look like?
  3. What is your ideal mate?
  4. Why are you afraid? What triggers you? 

I know Spirit was telling me it was finally time to face those shadows and to learn to love again. Stop fighting. I don’t have to be in a relationship-that’s still my choice-but it will actually be of my own free will and not driven by fear. I give thanks to Spirit for that lesson this morning and know it’ll take some time but as I deepen my love for myself then so too will I deepen my ability to love others. If it wasn’t for that card this morning then I highly doubt I would’ve given much thought to the problem but instead only continued burying it.

Thank you for taking the time to read this long and incredibly personal post which wasn’t easy for me to write. However, healing isn’t easy nor without pain. We’ve all been a points in our lives which we regret later on but each experience is meant to serve as a lesson and looking back now, I can objectively find lessons learned with each failed relationship. Were they indeed doomed as I believed or may they have actually worked out? Who knows. Either way, my next relationship will be completely free of my own choosing.

Brightest of Blessings!

The Autumn Witch

I wish you a day overflowing with love and joy! ❤

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