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Get To Know Me-32 Facts/Confessions

Get to know me

I’ve recently seen people confessing or sharing facts about themselves on a myriad of different forums and thought it seemed like a great idea! Ya’ll read my blog, follow me on Twitter or Facebook or Instagram, yet I doubt I’ve really shared anything about who I am as a person and a witch. So yes, I am jumping on the bandwagon with this one. Here are 32 Facts/Confessions about me. (I’m unsure why 32 but it was a number that came to me!)

  1. I’m from a very small country town in Virginia that will always be home.
  2. I very much dislike city life.
  3. I am fluent in Spanish, passable in French, and have taken classes in Japanese and Biblical Hebrew as well.
  4. I originally went to college to become a Spanish teacher but am not studying to become a paralegal.
  5. Over the years I have increasingly become interested and passionate about the law and politics. This has led to the vast postings on my personal Facebook page that are of a political nature which have caused my brother to promise he would unfriend me if I kept it up. (We share the same views but it isn’t so inclined to read about it frequently.)
  6. I’ve been creatively writing since the 6th grade and one of these days will publish a book–I must first overcome my fear of not being good enough!
  7. I’m a very silly, spontaneous, and wacky woman who will burst into song without reason, do a small dance when I am eating (I am a BIG Foodie!), and even allow myself to do ridiculous things to get a few laughs from family and friends.
  8. I am the eldest of three siblings though my brother is much taller–thereby appearing much older.
  9. I love to sing and was a part of the school choir from 6th-12th grade.
  10. I hope to work for an immigration law firm in the future.
  11. I have been to two countries–Nicaragua and Canada though my list is quite long of places I’d like to go.
  12. I do not remember the exact shade of brown my hair naturally is.
  13. I love Christmas carols and will listen to them all year round!
  14. I am terrified of ghosts but love shows like Ghost Hunters. I have a hard time sleeping at night but I cannot stop watching!
  15. I have also had some scary experiences with spirits.
  16. I have believed in the Gods and Goddesses, magick, witchcraft, and wicca since I was a young girl.
  17. The pantheon I first was interested in and knew to be real was the Greek pantheon. My favorite Goddess was Artemis.
  18. I love Christmas though I’m sure it helped it was never religious for my family. We celebrated Santa’s visit.
  19. I love the smell of fresh cut grass, new books, lemon, musk and think the crunch of gravel under a tire is the best sound in the world.
  20. I have a phobia of tornadoes. Like full panics whenever there’s a severe thunderstorm.
  21. Ironically, my favorite film as a child was Twister.
  22. I have been homeless. This was when I was at my lowest spiritual point ever–including magickally. I completely understand when people talk about feeling an overwhelming sense of hopelessness and despair. I have been there. This was also when I learned I had codependency issues big time!
  23. I am a Leo sun sign, Taurus moon, and Aquarius ascendant.
  24. I forever ship Dramione–Draco and Hermione.
  25. I credit Harry Potter with my going to college. I hated reading and profusely refused to until those books were published. I became enthralled and began reading avidly. I don’t think I would’ve achieved high marks in school without that love of reading instilled from the series.
  26. I loved Twilight when it first came out but cringe at it now.
  27. I love covering my hair. It makes me feel beautiful and capable of closing off the world for a while. It centers and refocuses me on myself.
  28. I was converting to Judaism before I refound Paganism and Wicca. I still miss it like crazy because I had so many wonderful and beautiful experiences there.
  29. The minions are my absolute favorite thing ever and I even have a minion piggy bank–it’s supposed to be Bob but his eyes are not different colors.
  30. I am such a fan of Disney movies and cartoons. I get so sick of sex, drugs, alcohol, and the other things you constantly are bombarded with in regular programming.
  31. My absolute favorite movie is The Prince of Egypt. I have loved it ever since I was little and in fact, my grandmother had bought me a storybook that followed along with the movie. The Exodus is my favorite part of the Bible which makes me feel very conflicted due to my frequent workings with the Egyptian pantheon.
  32. These past few years have been my hermit years as I’ve sort of closed myself off to others with a shift of focus into my own being, my own spirituality, my own life path. I now am getting lonely and seeking and outside community to connect with.

I didn’t think I would have much to share. Holy crap, 32 facts?! However, I could’ve still kept on going so that’s awesome! I hope ya’ll enjoy getting to know me a bit more and comment a few facts about yourself! I would LOVE to get to meet you as well! 🙂

 

Brightest of Blessings,

The Autumn Witch

 

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Memorial Day and One of My Peeves

Today is a day in which we honor those who have served this country and given the ultimate sacrifice so that we may continue enjoying the freedom we have. People associate Memorial Day with the beginning of the summer travel season, BBQs, Picnics, and overall good times with friends and family and booze–or maybe that last part is just my family. All day I’ve been seeing posts on Facebook that thank these heroes for their service but I must confess that there have been many posts today which have also peeved me. You’ve probably witnessed them too and either ignored them or just didn’t give them much thought which I’m guilty of both with the latter being especially true before I learned the major difference between the two days. Maybe we just don’t really teach about Memorial Day in school as we should or somehow something is getting lost in translation but nevertheless for some reason I found it annoying. Maybe its just semantics.

I’ve seen pictures that people post of their family members who are still alive today who they are thanking for their service along with people who are simply thanking their friends and relatives who are currently serving. Believe me, I am all about giving thanks to those brave men and women! However, it just seems people are confusing Memorial Day with Veteran’s Day which is when we thank those who have served, and those actively serving, who are still living. Memorial Day is about remembrance and remembering those who gave their lives while serving our country. I don’t know why but it does deeply bother me so maybe I need to take some time and reflect on why that is. Besides shouldn’t I be more peeved by those who simply view it as BBQ day or beach day?

Anyways, I do want to express my sincerest and deepest gratitude to all those brave men and women who gave their lives so that I may enjoy the freedom I do today. May their lives never have been given in vain and should they always be remembered. May the Goddess and God bless them.

 

Brightest of Blessings,

The Autumn Witch

Memorial Day

 

I know this isn’t my normal sort of blog post and I really hesitated in posting it as it sort of seemed petty, if that’s the right word. I just really needed to get it off my chest. I also kept politics and rants off this post because that isn’t the intention behind it.

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A Tangled Relationship with Love

“Sometimes to find love we must first love ourselves. In loving ourselves, we uncover our relationship with love.” –The Autumn Witch

We all have our own issues and problems in regards to love-whether that be love for ourselves, our family, our friends, our significant other, or even the overall conception of just love. It’s this very misunderstanding and misconceptions that can lead to us dreading and abhorring certain days like today-Valentine’s Day. I can already hear the collective groan! It isn’t because I’m single that I despise it but the simple over commercialization of what love should look like which leads to an over inflated sense of grandeur as well as expectations.

That doesn’t mean that I dislike romance and lovey-dovey schmutz either because believe me, I do! I’d noticed recently my dislike for Valentine’s Day has only increased and grown worse but I wasn’t sure why. Sure, I’m single but I choose  to be. I value my independence, time, and interests. There’s just a lot I want to do and unless I happen upon a man who shares those exact passions, I feel like I’m settling. That I’m forcing myself to give up and that’s not my thing. For example: I want to travel the world and teach abroad. I’ve actually been researching a potential opportunity to teach English abroad for a year in a country that I do speak the language of which would be an amazing opportunity (don’t want to give too much away–better not jinx it!), however when I guy starts talking to me and wanting to become serious, I totally freak. The men I’ve talked to either already have children, which isn’t the problem for me, but also love the area they are living in or have explicitly stated they’ve done all the travelling they wanted. We end up wanting two very different things!

OR this was the excuse I was always mumbling to myself whenever I would either decline any offers for a date or when I would end the relationship all together. It’s not that I’m a flake but there was something deeper to it that I just wasn’t acknowledging–or even willing to uncover! I wasn’t being real with myself. Well, recently I’ve begun a journey of self-love which has already been incredible. Suffering from low self-esteem and confidence, this has been a major eye-opener for me and it was through this love for myself that I began to open my heart up. With this came those emotional wounds, those shadows of my past.

It actually wasn’t something I had planned on doing as I wasn’t even aware I had deeper, more rooted issues that were plaguing my love life until this morning when I drew my card for the day which I’ll include the link below for! This card signaled there was some relationship and emotional issues that needed to be resolved before I could be free and move on. I knew I’m still pining over an ex-boyfriend of mine who was the ideal man for me–having been sixteen at the time meant I had been afraid of that serious commitment even though I could envision us getting married one day. Wait, how could I be afraid of the promise to stay together yet I could see us happily married with kids? Simple. It’s because I was afraid of settling down and not making anything out of myself. I was afraid that if I remained with him then I would give up my dreams of traveling and even maybe my dream of going to college. Over dramatic? Definitely but being an emotional teenage girl, that was who I was.

So, I dumped him. Except not in the best way possible. I dumped him for his best friend that we both worked with. Yikes. I know how wrong it was and actually ended up dumping his friend the same night I dumped my boyfriend because we just weren’t compatible in the least bit. I’d gone from someone I cared deeply about to someone who was only really looking a girl to have a fun time with. My fear wasn’t the only thing that drove me to do it but also several other factors, such as only seeing and talking to him at work because he didn’t have a phone or car. That, my friends, gets lonely whereas the other one did. And he loved to text so going from only speaking to a guy four-five times a week to having a guy text you Good Morning….it isn’t that hard to understand why I felt drawn to the latter.

It wasn’t only with that boyfriend though that I’ve sabotaged it somehow but I didn’t understand why I did it. Sure, like I stated previously, fear of giving up on my dreams was one and a big one but that wasn’t the end of it. As I prepared for my day, I was showering and that was when it hit me. It’d been a conditioning from my childhood that I had repressed and swept underneath the rug–THEN add the failed relationships that I blamed myself for and continued blaming myself for. You see, my parents didn’t have the best of relationships and actually were two people who never should’ve gotten married. They constantly bickered and I could see how much my mom hated being in that relationship. She’d given up her dreams of going to college, of making something of herself and had instead settled for being married and immediately having children. I was born four days before my parents first anniversary.

Watching her regret her decision and relationship every day as a child subconsciously had resolved me to never allow myself to become tangled in that trap. I refused to. So whenever a relationship would be fine and well, I’d panic and do end it. I looked for any reasons to justify my leaving and there just never seemed a good enough reason to stay. Being given this fresher perspective, I’m able to work on my issues so that they don’t hinder me in the future. While I value my independence, if in the right relationship I won’t feel like I’ve lost that. This aha-moment has given me the opportunity to really examine what love truly means to me. I used to think love was a hindrance that wasn’t a luxury I could afford. I  thought it looked as miserable as my parent’s marriage. I wanted this ideal perfect boyfriend who met such high standards because then I could easily argue against any relationship because they were below par. I was afraid. I still am. I’d be a fool to believe otherwise, however I now have the tools and capability to fix that conditioning since I can know understand why I believe it to be so.

If you find none of your relationships are panning out, take a step back. Reflect on each relationship and look for common themes. They’ll be there. Journaling would be a great way to do this! Take a honest look which can be hard as none of us want to admit our faults. I believe in you. If you want to do this but are having a hard time starting, try answering these questions:

  1. What does love mean to me?
  2. What does love look like?
  3. What is your ideal mate?
  4. Why are you afraid? What triggers you? 

I know Spirit was telling me it was finally time to face those shadows and to learn to love again. Stop fighting. I don’t have to be in a relationship-that’s still my choice-but it will actually be of my own free will and not driven by fear. I give thanks to Spirit for that lesson this morning and know it’ll take some time but as I deepen my love for myself then so too will I deepen my ability to love others. If it wasn’t for that card this morning then I highly doubt I would’ve given much thought to the problem but instead only continued burying it.

Thank you for taking the time to read this long and incredibly personal post which wasn’t easy for me to write. However, healing isn’t easy nor without pain. We’ve all been a points in our lives which we regret later on but each experience is meant to serve as a lesson and looking back now, I can objectively find lessons learned with each failed relationship. Were they indeed doomed as I believed or may they have actually worked out? Who knows. Either way, my next relationship will be completely free of my own choosing.

Brightest of Blessings!

The Autumn Witch

I wish you a day overflowing with love and joy! ❤

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Card of the Day-8 Feb. 2017

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Card of the Day
Love

Love is the highest and purest vibrational frequency there is. In Spirit, there is only love. It is ego which pulls us down and away. Are you loving enough? Are you allowing yourself to love? This doesn’t only need be the  intimate love of lovers but also extends to our family, our friends, our community, our country, and to the world as a whole. Do you love your fellow brothers and sisters? The past several months have been plagued with anger, envy, indignation, and much heated debates. While our outrage may be justified, try shifting your thoughts from anger and hate towards those who are in the wrong to simply love for those you are trying to protect. You can still be furious and fight to protect others’ rights but try shifting your focus on love. Your anger stems from the love you have from your fellow brothers and sisters.

From the Earth Magic deck by Steven D. Farmer

Kitchen Witch Tip #1

Hello, Beautiful Spirits! I thought I would share this quick little kitchen witch tip that I like. Personally I always feel better and believe my food tastes better after I’ve said a quick prayer of gratitude and blessing over it before eating. Have you ever tried it? It doesn’t have to be long and fancy but a simple thank you. Well, do that before even cooking the meat and it really allows you to connect to the animal. When about to cook meat, take a minute to put your hands over the package and really thank the animal for its sacrifice so that you are able to eat and live. Really feel that connection and gratitude within your heart. 🙂 You can also bless your ingredients for other dishes by gathering them all beforehand and while holding your hands above them, give thanks for them as well.

Saying a prayer of gratitude doesn’t have to only be done BEFORE eating the finished product. By blessing and thanking the animal beforehand, it really makes the cooking of the meal into a ritual itself. Also add ingredients based on their correspondences. That’s another good tip too! 🙂

 

Brightest of Blessings!

Memorial Day and One of My Peeves

Today is a day in which we honor those who have served this country and given the ultimate sacrifice so that we may continue enjoying the freedom we have. People associate Memorial Day with the beginning of the summer travel season, BBQs, Picnics, and overall good times with friends and family and booze–or maybe that last part is just my family. All day I’ve been seeing posts on Facebook that thank these heroes for their service but I must confess that there have been many posts today which have also peeved me. You’ve probably witnessed them too and either ignored them or just didn’t give them much thought which I’m guilty of both with the latter being especially true before I learned the major difference between the two days. Maybe we just don’t really teach about Memorial Day in school as we should or somehow something is getting lost in translation but nevertheless for some reason I found it annoying. Maybe its just semantics.

I’ve seen pictures that people post of their family members who are still alive today who they are thanking for their service along with people who are simply thanking their friends and relatives who are currently serving. Believe me, I am all about giving thanks to those brave men and women! However, it just seems people are confusing Memorial Day with Veteran’s Day which is when we thank those who have served, and those actively serving, who are still living. Memorial Day is about remembrance and remembering those who gave their lives while serving our country.I don’t know why but it does deeply bother me so maybe I need to take some time and reflect on why that is. Besides shouldn’t I be more peeved by those who simply view it as BBQ day or beach day?

Anyways, I do want to express my sincerest and deepest gratitude to all those brave men and women who gave their lives so that I may enjoy the freedom I do today. May their lives never have been given in vain and should they always be remembered. May the Goddess and God bless them.

 

Brightest of Blessings,

The Autumn Witch

 

I know this isn’t my normal sort of blog post and I really hesitated in posting it as it sort of seemed petty, if that’s the right word. I just really needed to get it off my chest.