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Good Afternoon!

I have floundered in my desire to articulate the profound and overwhelmingly beautiful experience from a few weekends back that left me with an expansive heart and tears of joy streaming down my face. I was overcome with a deep sense of gratitude that almost was too incredible for words. In the very least, the only way in which I could ever hope to describe such an experience was a lesson from the Great Goddess Hathor Herself. Just know that even while writing this post, I have tears beginning to bubble in my eyes as I’m still so very thankful for such an eye-opening, aha! Moment. 😊

In my desperate attempt to place this lesson within context, allow me to explain my mindset before the experience. I was raised in a small town surrounded by mountains, so that regardless which direction you drive, they are there. This makes it absolutely beautiful in the fall when they are painted different colors. While I understood the beauty of my surroundings–and indeed back before I began becoming my authentic self, I was aware–I always wanted to move away. Ever since I was 16 all I could ever think about was moving up to New England. It called to me. Beckoned to my very spirit. I’m now about to turn 25 and that desire hasn’t lessened in the least bit. The only exception is now I’ve almost entirely forgotten the grandeur and beauty of my surroundings as I’ve become so focused on how much I differ from many of the residents. 15195883_10202357720262582_6775003807926241282_o

More than likely you already know where this all is headed. Anyways, a couple of Fridays ago I was headed to the cemetery that is almost a family cemetery. So many of my relatives are buried in this small little gated cemetery, located behind a small Methodist church, on top of a mountain. It’s one of the most serene and aesthetic view imaginable. I’ll have to ensure to snap a picture during my next visit. My grandmother, great-grandparents, aunts, and an uncle are buried there which I already knew. However, thanks to Ancestry.com and Findagrave.com, I recently became aware that my great-great grandparents are buried there as well. Before I began researching my family tree I didn’t even know their names and now I discovered they are buried in the same location. Talk about excited! I was determined to find their graves.

I’ve always been interested in my ancestry but no one had ever thought to ask questions, so you must understand how I could be so elated over such a rather trivial discovery. They were born in 1875 and 1879 which is incredible to me. Realizing it was Friday, Hathor’s sacred day, I allowed myself to begin the day be reveling in all that was pleasurable and beautiful so I decided to honor Her by doing my make-up. It may seem frivolous but it is a way in which I connect with Her. I digress and merely wanted to illustrate the point that I was already within this mind frame which I assume could only help any similar messages be heard.

My little sister and I headed to the cemetery which is about an hour or so away from where we now live. Having moved to the city last year, I revel in every moment spent back in the country as I have come to realize the immense blessing it is. The entire drive up the mountain was full of nothing short of lush greenery, the earth delighting in life and pleasure (it was before Beltane), and just a much slower pace. I’ve always been grateful for being raised in the country as it instilled within me a certain set of standards, values, and traditions that molded me into the woman I am today.

I may have forgotten that you don’t have to religiously or politically agree about everything–or anything–to enjoy and live a country life. It isn’t necessarily the tenets of faith you believe, the politicians you elect, but instead is based on the quality of life and enjoyment you receive from the small moments. It’s sitting on the porch during the warm summer nights, watching the lightning bugs dance throughout the yard, while friends are gathered nearby around a bonfire. It’s about really cherishing family, appreciating hospitality, and simply embracing life to the fullest. That was my lesson. Neighbors willing to help one another out, families gathering together for large BBQs, or simply relaxing outside while you make sun tea–that’s country. It’s the way in which we’re taught how to treat people and that manners count. I was focusing so much on the extreme differences to even understand that there is still so much of me that is a country girl. And that’s just as it should be.

20170428_134647Hathor granted me this shift in perception, this glorious and amazing understanding, as I was driving back from the cemetery. As I drove back down the mountain with all these green and awe-inspiring (at least to me) landscapes, with people waving as I passed by or simply nodding, with my childhood rushing back, I was reminded that true beauty is always all around us. Sometimes we only focus on the negatives and life is always going to have a down side. When we do this, we miss out on the incredible experience we’re already having. I could imagine myself remaining in this state, in this small town, completely different, eccentric, and unique, with no quarrels or snubbed nose of mine, and I was completely overwhelmed with the majesty of such a realization that all I could do was cry. Cry sheer tears of joy and appreciation. Never have I had such a deep sense of gratitude, beauty, love, joy, or enthusiasm. It was only due to Her that I had this shift of perception and I’ll be forever grateful.

This doesn’t mean that I wouldn’t mind eventually moving up north. It simply means that I won’t sit here bitching and wasting every precious moment longing for a place to call home. I already have one and we can have many places we call home. But for me, this is it. This is my home. I’m a country girl, from a small town who doesn’t share much in common with my fellow men and women–at least not on the outside. Dig deep enough and there’s more similarities than possibly believed. IMG_20170430_232455_921

Thank you, Hathor, Great Goddess of Love, Beauty, and all Earth’s Pleasures for such a epiphany and I give you Honor through this post. You brought me home and that was certainly no easy feat. Dua Hathor! Dua Netjer!

Blessed Be, My Dear Friends,

The Autumn Witch

I did make a Youtube video to accompany this post. If you would like to check it out, click here.

 

P.S. I’m truly sorry it’s taken so long to post. I’ve recently had a bad bought of Strep then add in a broken tooth—whew, let me tell ya, it sucks! I will be resuming my regular blog postings as well as my Card of the Day. Follow me on my social media sites if you would like to remain in contact with me and also to learn of any delays in postings (that way you don’t think I just left you out in the cold! 😉)

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Card of the Day-7 May 2017

 

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From the Earth Magic deck by Steven D. Farmer

Card of the Day
Eagle (Communion)

This is quite funny because I was just thinking earlier this morning about a post I’d read on Facebook about disconnect and the necessity of union with Spirit/God/Goddess/All That Is. This communion also extends into nature as everything has a spirit. We’re all interconnected so the tree beside my sidewalk is just as much a part of me as I am of it. This makes communication and communion possible.
Take time today to speak to your higher power. Pray,  Meditate, Chant–whichever helps you. Our lives become so busy that we tend to only come to Them when we’re in need but have you ever talked to Them? That’s the necessity of the day. If already do this then go out and commune with nature. That is your meaning. Nature is the manifestation of the Gods.
Be one with Them. Talk to Them. Listen. Maybe there is a message needing relaying?

*Card from the Earth Magic deck

Brightest of Blessings,

The Autumn Witch

My Beltane Aha! Moment–Beltane 2015

So this past weekend has been full of me trying to really rediscover myself as well as understand some issues that keep cropping up in my life. Mix that in with family drama, the mess that life can be, being sick, and some major changes of self–well I was in a right mess. I knew it had something to do with my perception and felt that I already knew the answer. I later logged onto my Facebook account and was sort of spring cleaning it–unliking no longer relevant pages, groups, and the like before realizing I had some notes on my personal page. One was a schedule from my senior year in high school back in 2009/2010–WOAH! Then I happened upon a note from Beltane 2015 that I’d completely forgotten about and within it was the lesson I was in need of hearing once more. I’ve felt compelled to share it with ya’ll in case you too may be in the same mindset. 🙂

My Beltane Aha! Moment–Beltane ’15

Hope everyone had a wonderful Beltane and if you’re celebrating the entire weekend, then I wish your celebration is full of beauty and love. My Beltane definitely didn’t go as I had planned. Yesterday, 1 May, was also my mother’s birthday and I had a job interview so talk about busy! The night before I’d grown quite restless and perhaps only managed four hours of sleep which only made me very grumpy in the morning. It didn’t help that the grumpy bug had bitten everyone else in the house either. I’d decided because I wasn’t in the mindset for ritual to skip that and instead celebrate in small ways throughout the day which will carry on into today as well. Long story short, it seemed as if everything I had planned yesterday just wasn’t working. Even just watching the sunrise didn’t happen as it was rainy and very dreary–which definitely didn’t help my mood! In fact, my mood didn’t even improve until later that afternoon after my interview. It wasn’t the prospects of perhaps acquiring this job after searching for a while that had made me smile. No, it was something so small that normally is taken for granted. 

On my drive back home, I had turned the radio from the usual country station I always have it on to the hip-hop/rap station that I hadn’t really listened to since leaving college. I just wanted to listen to something much more upbeat which would definitely be keeping with the energy of Beltane–even though I didn’t give it a thought at the time! Actually I didn’t even think about it until I realized I was still listening to said station at this very moment! Funny how it works like that at times! However, I digress. As I continued my drive home, I paid attention to the passing fields and yards that, though damp, were lush and green! BAM! In my head popped the four and five of Chalices! The Four of Chalices came to my mind first but as I stopped and thought about it the Five really stood out so I’m going to start with that card and what it taught me yesterday.

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To me, the five of chalices typically represents not being fully present in the moment, being detached and unaware, and even oblivious. It’s about not being attentive to a situation (or life in this case) and that around you. As can be seen in the card, the man is only paying attention to the spilled chalices, therefore completely oblivious to the two good ones. He’s instead only choosing to put his focus and energy towards that which 1) is on the more negative side, 2) that which he cannot control, 3) the depressing smaller picture instead of the bigger picture that everything’s alright, and 4) not letting go that which no longer serves him. This really hit me because instead of paying attention to the beauty around me, the joy of it all, I was only choosing to focus on a small part of the big picture. I was choosing to instead focus on the negative side of things–the rain, the attitudes, the lack of sleep, etc. I was completely missing the BIG picture! For one, we really need the rain as without rain nothing can grow. Two, everyone has bad days but it’s how you decide to handle them that counts. Instead of grumbling and feeding that grumpy, moody energy I needed to take a few deep breaths and just say a few things I was grateful for as that is an instant mood lifter in my opinion. It really makes you thankful for every day you’ve been blessed with. Going back to the rain, looking at the green earth I realized just how much it contrasted with the dark, gray sky which in turn made everything seem greener and beautiful. On sunny days, though I am aware of the green surrounding me, I definitely don’t appreciate it as much as I should. This allowed me to focus instead on that appreciation and wonder that comes from nature. This card really reminded me of choosing where I focus my attention and energy.

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The other card was the Four of Chalices. This card was the first that floated–not floated, more like bolted!–into my mind. This card is sort of similar to me as the one above in that it’s about not paying attention. It’s about missing out on an opportunity because you are solely focused on the situation or even the future. Paying attention will allow you to be aware of the opportunities and blessings surrounding you. Instead of worrying about what’s to come (as the Chalices are in front of and not next to the person), look around, be fully present, and open yourself to the Universe who will provide what you need. This card stuck out to me as I’d been very much worried about the future with my bills, going back to school, and the long term accomplishments I’d be able to achieve with this job if I get it. Of course it’s always a good idea to make some sort of goals and a list of what you want to accomplish but sometimes we get so wrapped up in that worry and anxiety that we don’t pay attention to the now. This is the only moment guaranteed. How are you spending it? I was constantly in the mindset of the future that I wasn’t paying any attention to the here and now. This reminded me to slow down, take a deep breath, and just enjoy the moment now. I’d even become stressed and frustrated with how I wanted to celebrate Beltane throughout the day instead of simply sitting with the energy of the day, with the God and Goddess, and just enjoying life! I was so angry that my day wasn’t going according to plan that I wasn’t allowing the day to unfold as it should. I was to focused ahead that I was almost rushing through those small moments of celebration that I did do because to me they weren’t what I thought of as celebration.

This was my little aha moments for the day and remembering that I’ve got to stop and smell the roses which even goes with the energy of Taurus. Everything is connected and works together, we just have to stop and allow the present to penetrate our spirit and by doing that, we are in constant celebration.

 

I hope this lesson I learned may be helpful to some of you as I feel we can have the horrible tendency to allow the little things to ruin our perception of the day when there is so much to be joyous of–so much to celebrate! We also need to remember that we need to be fully present in each moment–allowing ourselves to pause and really enjoy life. ❤

Blessed Beltane and Brightest of Blessings,

The Autumn Witch

 

Invocation to Ma’at for Harmony and Balance

Happy Friday! I hope ya’ll have had a wonderful week abundant with joy, love, and success. If you’re like me, you may have begun feeling off yesterday which certain political events surely only deepened. My heart was so heavy yesterday that I found myself being overwhelmed with a sort of melancholy that I’ve never before felt. It was definitely weird!

This stuck with me and today when I drew the Card of the Day, I drew the Keeper of the Scales which was about a lack of balance within. Immediately I began to think of Ma’at who isn’t a Goddess I’ve actually ever worked with before so I knew She was attempting to contact me. Listen to the signs–that’s what I’ve been preaching! So I quickly researched Her in excitement and before long I was writing an invocation to Her for Harmony and Balance. I’ve never really written an invocation before so bear with me. This most definitely may be tweaked and enhanced for your own personal use. However, if you do decide to use it as is, please do credit me. 🙂

Quick Facts about Ma’at:

  • Egyptian Goddess of Truth, Justice, Harmony, and Order
  • Daughter of Ra through Heka (Magick) and Wife of Thoth
  • Her most notable symbol is the Ostrich Feather which she wears in her hair–it’s the feather which our hearts our weighed against in the Hall of Judgement.
  • She is usually depicted with wings.
  • Only one temple was built for Her by Hatshepsut.
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Ma’at

My Correspondences for Her: (I read some of these and agreed. Some were intuitive)

  • Colors: Purple and Blue (some mention black as well, which I can sort of agree with)
  • Symbols: Feather (especially Ostrich) and ankh
  • Element: Air
  • Tarot Card: Justice
  • Crystals: Amethyst, Emerald, and Jade
  • Scent: Aloe (Rose was also added but I’m unsure–that seems more Hathor too me)

**If you decide to invoke Her for Justice Spells, it’s always important to remember that you better be clean within that situation too as She doesn’t discriminate against who she deals Her justice against.**

Personally for this Invocation I would light a purple or blue candle and hold a piece of Amethyst. You can use any your guided to or exclude them.

Invocation:

I call to You, Lady Ma’at,

Daugther of Ra, Wife of Thoth.

She whose ostrich plume holds immense power

As it deems whether a heart is pure or not.

Balance and Harmony are Your conviction.

It is through You that we may reach such ideals,

As you permeate everything—all that is just and good.

 

I call upon you on this day

For help in balancing my inner self—my inner planes

So that I may be whole and healed.

I’ve allowed the outside world to much freedom

In regard to my emotions and peace.

I failed to shield myself. I acknowledge that.

I ask that You assist me in realigning myself with my Truth,

So that I may return to myself.

So that I may be complete.

 

You, who embody all that is just and balanced,

Come to me now so that I may too delight in you.

Allow me to share and revel in your order and harmony.

Allow me to be restored—

For the scales within to become equal,

So that I may continue forth in my fight against injustice,

So that I may aid You in this world, and with Your mission,

Of Truth, Justice, and Order.

So Shall It Be.

©The Autumn Witch

 

What’s your experience with Ma’at? Is She a Goddess you’ve worked with before? I found Her quite fascinating though there doesn’t seem to be loads of information about Her.

 

Brightest of Blessings,

The Autumn Witch

 

Click on the CARD OF THE DAY link above to be directed to the post if you care to read it.

Don’t forget that you can now find me on Facebook (click here) where I will regularly share COTD posts, blog posts, updates, and other tidbits that you may miss out on. Facebook is sort of my thing though I’m also active on Twitter (click here) and Instagram (click here).

I also have been creating my Etsy shop where I will offer Tarot Readings and once it’s operational and live, I will post about it on here. 🙂

 

Sources:

http://goddessschool.com/projects/maat.html

http://www.paganspace.net/group/sacredsecretsofancientegyptians/forum/topics/goddess-maat

http://www.ancient.eu/Ma’at/http://www.crystalinks.com/maat.html

http://www.ancient-origins.net/history-ancient-traditions/maat-ancient-egyptian-goddess-truth-justice-and-morality-003131

http://ancienttreasures.com/lrgtext.php3?product=E-86&CA=1

Astral Sacred Space/Altar:My How-To

Having an altar and sacred space to meditate and do magickal workings is vital for the witch as not only does it help encourage you to continue your practice on a daily basis but becomes a comfortable place where you know you can meet with the Divine to commune and work. Not all sacred spaces contain altars but regardless, all altar spaces could be considered sacred spaces. There are two major types of altars: permanent and temporary. Permanent altars are ideal for me, however they aren’t always the most practical—especially when you live in a house of nonmagickal people as well as those who find your practice and path funny. Sound familiar?

I’ve recently come clashing back to reality with this and for a while was only working with a temporary altar which meets my needs, however finding the space for it can be tricky. Some people use cardboard boxes, the floor, or whatever they need to but I’ve found that with my cats as well as family members, this isn’t necessarily the best option. Plus, my mom gets awful migraines from incense burning so I can only ever do ritual or meditation when she’s out of the house—incense isn’t required but does get me in the mood and state of mind which is why I continue to use it. So then if having a permanent altar is out of the question and a temporary begins to become no good either, what is a witch to do!?

Well, let me tell you what I do as I don’t know why I didn’t think of it sooner! I remember doing an activity on a Wicca 101 book—I’m unsure which one but if I remember, I’ll link down below—in which the exercise was about going into meditation to find your sacred space. This could be a natural place such as by a lake, in a temple, or whatever you were guided to. So this helped create an astral sacred space for me that I knew I could always come back to when I needed to recharge. However, I never thought about doing anything there ritually! Holy Crap! It was as if a choir of angels came from the heavens singing—no, not really but it was an amazing thought. So I went into a meditative state and appeared at my sacred space were I conjured some candles and the tools that were almost identical to the ones I physically have. From that point, I performed my daily devotion just as I would have if I’d been physically doing it, complete with meditation music that I know by heart as I always listen to it. The Gods appeared and seemed to find it an intriguing experience and it was so real that I could smell the incense and feel the space around me. My senses came alive and it was a very beautiful and moving experience.

Think you’d like to give this a try? Here’s a quick little how-to:

  1. Find a place where you can meditate without worry of being interrupted.
  2. If you need to, put on some soft music though I think this could potentially impact your meditation but if it’s needed, go for it!
  3. Begin your meditation however you normally do. For me, I count myself down into Alpha using a technique I learned from one of Laurie Cabot’s books. Set your intention that you are seeking out a sacred space on the astral plane where you may return time and time again without fear.
  4. Let yourself be guided until you find the right spot. This may not be how you imagined or previously thought and that’s okay. Take note of it. The surroundings, any markings, and more importantly how does it make you feel?
  5. Take a seat within this space and reach out to the elements and the Divine. Ask that they be with you whenever you visit this spot. Claim it as your sacred space and know that it will be. You may always return.
  6. Visualize any tools you may need for magick and or ritual, knowing they are there and very much real. Any thoughts or visualizations manifest on the astral plane before the physical world which means that any magick done here should manifest quicker than normal spells.This is when you create your altar in this space and you can always reconjure this altar.
  7. Perform your magick/ritual/devotion as you normally would—cast a circle, invoke the Gods, etc.
  8. Once done, tidy up and give thanks for allowing your use of this space. Thank the Gods, thank the elements, and thank your higher self that led you there.
  9. Slowly return to your body and come out of your meditation as you normally would.
  10. Write about your experience. Describe the place in detail so that you will always be able to picture it within your mind and return with ease.

Note of caution: I wouldn’t rely solely on the astral plane but instead use it whenever a physical altar is unwise. This isn’t because I believe the astral dangerous, though it can be depending on your intention and state of mind when you enter it. I simply believe that we do live on the physical plane and therefore should work here as well. I know, it sounds almost contradictory. If you have the right intentions, don’t travel with any negative feelings or expectations, and properly protect yourself (like a bubble visualization) then you should be fine! 😊

 

So, what do you do when having an altar is a hassle? Any tips or tricks? Also, if you try this method please share your experience as I’d love to hear them!!!

 

Brightest of Blessings and happy rituals,

The Autumn Witch

A Tangled Relationship with Love

“Sometimes to find love we must first love ourselves. In loving ourselves, we uncover our relationship with love.” –The Autumn Witch

We all have our own issues and problems in regards to love-whether that be love for ourselves, our family, our friends, our significant other, or even the overall conception of just love. It’s this very misunderstanding and misconceptions that can lead to us dreading and abhorring certain days like today-Valentine’s Day. I can already hear the collective groan! It isn’t because I’m single that I despise it but the simple over commercialization of what love should look like which leads to an over inflated sense of grandeur as well as expectations.

That doesn’t mean that I dislike romance and lovey-dovey schmutz either because believe me, I do! I’d noticed recently my dislike for Valentine’s Day has only increased and grown worse but I wasn’t sure why. Sure, I’m single but I choose  to be. I value my independence, time, and interests. There’s just a lot I want to do and unless I happen upon a man who shares those exact passions, I feel like I’m settling. That I’m forcing myself to give up and that’s not my thing. For example: I want to travel the world and teach abroad. I’ve actually been researching a potential opportunity to teach English abroad for a year in a country that I do speak the language of which would be an amazing opportunity (don’t want to give too much away–better not jinx it!), however when I guy starts talking to me and wanting to become serious, I totally freak. The men I’ve talked to either already have children, which isn’t the problem for me, but also love the area they are living in or have explicitly stated they’ve done all the travelling they wanted. We end up wanting two very different things!

OR this was the excuse I was always mumbling to myself whenever I would either decline any offers for a date or when I would end the relationship all together. It’s not that I’m a flake but there was something deeper to it that I just wasn’t acknowledging–or even willing to uncover! I wasn’t being real with myself. Well, recently I’ve begun a journey of self-love which has already been incredible. Suffering from low self-esteem and confidence, this has been a major eye-opener for me and it was through this love for myself that I began to open my heart up. With this came those emotional wounds, those shadows of my past.

It actually wasn’t something I had planned on doing as I wasn’t even aware I had deeper, more rooted issues that were plaguing my love life until this morning when I drew my card for the day which I’ll include the link below for! This card signaled there was some relationship and emotional issues that needed to be resolved before I could be free and move on. I knew I’m still pining over an ex-boyfriend of mine who was the ideal man for me–having been sixteen at the time meant I had been afraid of that serious commitment even though I could envision us getting married one day. Wait, how could I be afraid of the promise to stay together yet I could see us happily married with kids? Simple. It’s because I was afraid of settling down and not making anything out of myself. I was afraid that if I remained with him then I would give up my dreams of traveling and even maybe my dream of going to college. Over dramatic? Definitely but being an emotional teenage girl, that was who I was.

So, I dumped him. Except not in the best way possible. I dumped him for his best friend that we both worked with. Yikes. I know how wrong it was and actually ended up dumping his friend the same night I dumped my boyfriend because we just weren’t compatible in the least bit. I’d gone from someone I cared deeply about to someone who was only really looking a girl to have a fun time with. My fear wasn’t the only thing that drove me to do it but also several other factors, such as only seeing and talking to him at work because he didn’t have a phone or car. That, my friends, gets lonely whereas the other one did. And he loved to text so going from only speaking to a guy four-five times a week to having a guy text you Good Morning….it isn’t that hard to understand why I felt drawn to the latter.

It wasn’t only with that boyfriend though that I’ve sabotaged it somehow but I didn’t understand why I did it. Sure, like I stated previously, fear of giving up on my dreams was one and a big one but that wasn’t the end of it. As I prepared for my day, I was showering and that was when it hit me. It’d been a conditioning from my childhood that I had repressed and swept underneath the rug–THEN add the failed relationships that I blamed myself for and continued blaming myself for. You see, my parents didn’t have the best of relationships and actually were two people who never should’ve gotten married. They constantly bickered and I could see how much my mom hated being in that relationship. She’d given up her dreams of going to college, of making something of herself and had instead settled for being married and immediately having children. I was born four days before my parents first anniversary.

Watching her regret her decision and relationship every day as a child subconsciously had resolved me to never allow myself to become tangled in that trap. I refused to. So whenever a relationship would be fine and well, I’d panic and do end it. I looked for any reasons to justify my leaving and there just never seemed a good enough reason to stay. Being given this fresher perspective, I’m able to work on my issues so that they don’t hinder me in the future. While I value my independence, if in the right relationship I won’t feel like I’ve lost that. This aha-moment has given me the opportunity to really examine what love truly means to me. I used to think love was a hindrance that wasn’t a luxury I could afford. I  thought it looked as miserable as my parent’s marriage. I wanted this ideal perfect boyfriend who met such high standards because then I could easily argue against any relationship because they were below par. I was afraid. I still am. I’d be a fool to believe otherwise, however I now have the tools and capability to fix that conditioning since I can know understand why I believe it to be so.

If you find none of your relationships are panning out, take a step back. Reflect on each relationship and look for common themes. They’ll be there. Journaling would be a great way to do this! Take a honest look which can be hard as none of us want to admit our faults. I believe in you. If you want to do this but are having a hard time starting, try answering these questions:

  1. What does love mean to me?
  2. What does love look like?
  3. What is your ideal mate?
  4. Why are you afraid? What triggers you? 

I know Spirit was telling me it was finally time to face those shadows and to learn to love again. Stop fighting. I don’t have to be in a relationship-that’s still my choice-but it will actually be of my own free will and not driven by fear. I give thanks to Spirit for that lesson this morning and know it’ll take some time but as I deepen my love for myself then so too will I deepen my ability to love others. If it wasn’t for that card this morning then I highly doubt I would’ve given much thought to the problem but instead only continued burying it.

Thank you for taking the time to read this long and incredibly personal post which wasn’t easy for me to write. However, healing isn’t easy nor without pain. We’ve all been a points in our lives which we regret later on but each experience is meant to serve as a lesson and looking back now, I can objectively find lessons learned with each failed relationship. Were they indeed doomed as I believed or may they have actually worked out? Who knows. Either way, my next relationship will be completely free of my own choosing.

Brightest of Blessings!

The Autumn Witch

I wish you a day overflowing with love and joy! ❤

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Reconnecting through the Signs

“Listen to the wind, the birds, the sounds of the earth and sky for they are the voices of the God and Goddess.”–The Autumn Witch

Constantly we are searching and seeking the Divine either for connection, support, encouragement, love, insight, or even proof They do exist. While I believe people of all backgrounds and faiths have this deep yearn to connect to their concept of the Creator, I have found that ever since my returning home, as I like to call it, my “conversion”–if you will–to Paganism and Witchcraft, has been fraught with such need for reaffirmation. Just the simple reaffirming that the God and Goddess, the Great Spirit (as I collectively think of Them) are there. Some faiths have buildings were they convene to communicate with the Divine and have books full of inspiration and divinely inspired insight to read and recite. We, as Pagans and Witches, have nature.

Well then, should that not make it far more easier to speak and hear our Deities? Yes and No. We all have hectic days where we’re constantly going from here to there while our minds are preoccupied with to-do’s and mundane necessities that we might eventually find our spiritual practice lacking. This has happened to me far too often and that is a goal for this year–to become more spiritually attuned as well as develop a daily practice that I can keep. From this lack of a daily practice, we become distant from our Gods which only leaves us empty and searching. I’ve noticed that during the winter, when it’s too cold for me to really spend much time outdoors-and actually, most of the time don’t want to go outside!-as well as days that are just too chaotic, I begin to feel even more lost and begin to question my path. I firmly believe this is due to remaining indoors and losing that connection to nature that I had before the onset of winter.

Do you have to have this sudden lack of connection in order to seek? Certainly not, however I do believe, and have personally noted, that it seems to be the more popular time to seek Them out. If you follow me on Twitter, you know that during the Mercury Retrograde I was at my spiritual height for 2016. I was finally shedding the old and embracing my authentic self. However, as soon as Mercury went Direct it was as if the wind got knocked from me and I went spiraling into this depressive, almost numb, sort of state. I felt empty and lacked all motivation for my practice. I began to become overcome by ego and fear–especially fears I’d released at the end of December. They took a hold of me and would not let go! I couldn’t find the Gods! It was as if They were gone! In this state of confusion and isolation, I began to return to my previous religion and it was as if I was stumbling around in a stupor. I had brief flashes of awe and excitement during this excursion, as I shall deem it, but I knew in my mind it was not my path. It no longer served me.

After about two weeks or so, I decided I’d had enough. I was not returning. I was not traveling backwards but would continue with the progression I’d made. I was a Pagan Witch–dammit! (Sometimes I have to be a little firm with myself.) One night, after having watched a video that I thoroughly had enjoyed in regards to my past faith, I was lying in bed about to close my eyes for bed when I had made the decision to pray. Mind you, I’m not much into prayer. Not because it doesn’t work or I’m against it but just because I always ended up missing “prayer sessions” whenever I implemented a prayer regimen, if you will and would scold myself. You know, where you say you’ll pray before bed, before meals, etc. I’m not too good at the whole time-table prayer schedule-or even with altar devotions! I digress. I stated my intention that I was going to pray. At this time, I’d figured I would be praying to God, however as I closed my eyes and folded my hands in front of my chest, I found the words that came to my mind were not addressed to Him but to the Gods and Goddesses I’d previously spoken with.

I named Them each by name-first the Goddesses then the Gods-before addressing the Great Spirit which I believe encompasses Them All as well as any Deities of other faiths. They are all manifestations and aspects of this Great Spirit-this One energy that permeates all. As you can imagine, this was a pretty long list that included Celtic, Greek, and Egyptian Deities. Any that I’d ever felt a connection to. I listed Them, visualizing each and every single one, before beseeching Them to help me find a re-connection to Them. I asked Them to return to my life as I knew this former path was no longer my own. I released this prayer then went to sleep but with more peace in my heart than I’d felt previously.

The next morning I awoke early and left for work. I didn’t give any other thought to the prayer but as I stepped outside, it was silent. Completely still of all people and cars, incredible since I live in a city! The morning air was crisp with just a hint of mist which is always a very mystical and magickal form of precipitation to me. As I began to cross the street towards my car, I heard a crow caw and smiled as a crow, personally, symbolizes magick is afoot. I acknowledged that and continued. Something told me to glance down and there was a worm in the road and I carefully stepped over it. Immediately a small giggle entered my mind as I thought, “All creatures are from Gaia”. Then I noticed some squirrels playing at the tree near my car. It wasn’t until after I had fastened my seat belt and began to pull out that I realized I was receiving exactly what I’d asked for. The God and Goddess don’t necessarily speak with words. We don’t hear loud, booming voices announcing the presence of the Gods. Instead, They speak through signs, through symbols, and through nature.

This taught me a very important lesson-look for the signs. Spirit/The Gods are always speaking but are we listening? Do we brush aside these signs and instead expect only words? Do we open ourselves up to receive such communication? The sight of animals associated with a particular Deity or of our spirit animals can be far greater a sign of communication than even words could! We must listen not with our ears but with our spirit and with our heart. We must shift from the logical part of ourselves and tap into our intuitive and emotional side. It is through this that we will experience the Gods.

If you’re wondering about why I’d willingly returned to a previous faith with the knowledge that it wasn’t for me: I’d discovered it was a deep shadow of mine that I’d never worked with. I’d learned that whenever things weren’t going well or something awful happened in my life, I’d go running back to my previous faith in fear. That can’t go. Fear and being uncomfortable are a part of life and it is through the tackling of them that we are able to progress and evolve.

Returning to my message about the signs, next time you’re feeling disconnected or anything then firstly always go to nature first. This can really ground and connect us. If that doesn’t help then ask yourself, “are you looking for the signs?” I’ve had great inspiration and connection come to me when sitting beneath a tree with the breeze suddenly swirling through the leaves, rustling the words of the Gods than I’ve had sitting inside and praying. Seek Them out, if you must, but remember to listen with more than your ears. Open your heart. Otherwise, you may just miss what it is They are saying. Don’t forget to ask either.

This, my friends, is Simple Magick. How? It doesn’t involve any tools, any trappings, any preparation. It can simply be a prayer followed with observation. Any connection to Spirit is magick in my opinion. I do apologize as this is a very long winded post but it explains not only my absence this month but my renewed vigor for my Craft and my path.

Brightest of Blessings,

The Autumn Witch

“We must listen not with our ears but with our spirit and with our heart.”-The Autumn Witch

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